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[10 Mar 2010|08:39pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

As I attempt to deal with this damned runny nose thanks to the lovely effects of allergy season, I found this lovely community brought to my attention by the girl known as Adrean a.k.a., Vera.  I wonder if anyone would actually remember me from the time period that I spent in the BSSM chats, from 1998 - 99 to about 2002.  My name's Charlie; I went by the SNs MaxDestiny, BDiamondSI, CDiamondFS, Lord Bry Dyamond, Hellion Bry Dyamond, Aisu No Banpaia, etc, etc, etc.  I've had a hundred different SNs, scary enough.

If anyone remembers me, well I still live, lol...  I'm rarely on here though; I only popped on after this community was mentioned to me, if you want my Myspace or my Facebook accounts, well all you have to do is ask.  Anyways, TTFN.  Ta ta for now. 

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[09 Aug 2001|02:05pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Well, now's the time when you realize who your true friends are, and who they aren't. I'm surprised I stayed friends with Resa for this fucking long. >/! You look for a shoulder to lean on, and you end up getting stabbed in the mother fucking back. Yeah, that's the gratitude I get for always being there for her when she needed someone to talk to, and when she needed a shoulder to cry on. Ya' know, I'm just fucking sick of people. -_-; Fuck her, and fuck that bitch boyfriend of her's, Josh. They both can go drop dead for all I care. I DON'T NEED THIS SHIT ANYMORE >O! Fucking bitch, and bastard. Yeah, merry fucking christmas you too. I hope you realize how much I fucking hate you both. Looks like you screwed things up again, Resa. Just like before. And I hope you fuck your relationship with Josh up. And when you do, because I fucking know you will, don't come crawling to me. Because all I'll have to say is "don't talk to me. Your boyfriend told you not to." Your shit's pushed me over the god damn fucking edge. >/!! Have a nice fucking day.

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[05 Aug 2001|03:00am]
[ mood | crazy ]

There's no money, There's no possessions. Only obsession, I don't need that shit. Take my money, Take my obsession.

I just want to be heard, loud and clear are my words, coming from within man tell them what you heard, it's about a revolution, in your heart and in your mind, till you find a conclusion, lost out in obsession, diamond rings get you nothing but a life-long lesson, and your pocketbooks stressing, you're a slave to the system, working jobs that you hate for that shit you don't need, it's too bad the world is based on greed, step back and see, stop thinking about yourself, start thinking about.

There's no money, There's no possession, Only obsession, I don't need that shit. Take my money, Take my possession, Take my obsession, I don't need that shit.

Because everything is nothing, and emptiness isn't everything, this reality is really just a fucked up dream, with the flesh and the blood that you call your soul, flip it inside out, it's a big black hole, take your money burn it up like an asteroid, possession, though you're never gonna feel the void, take it away and learn your best lesson, the heart, the soul, the life, the passion.

There's no money, There's no possession. Only obsession, I don't need that shit. Take my money. Take my possession, Take my obsession, I don't need that shit.

Money, Possession, Obsession. Present yourself, press your clothes, comb your hair,
and clock in. You just can't win, just can't win. And the things you own, own you. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Take my money, Take my possession, Take my obsession, I don't need that shit. Fuck your money, Fuck your possession, Fuck your obsession, I don't need that shit. Money, Possession, Obsession, I don't need that shit.</p>
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The Last Two Days. :O [03 Aug 2001|12:58pm]
[ mood | awake ]

And it's a surprise, folks, I'm actually wide awake. Yeah. x_x; I have to go to work at two o'clock today, and I'd rather be sleeping after the insane two days that I've had.

Anyways.. Wednesday I went into work at eight, and left a twelve thirty. Yadda.. I got my shit from my dad's house, then stayed over my uncle's house Wednesday, and hung out there most of Thursday, until Shannon, and George picked me up from there. I'd have to say that George is one funny mother fucker. I never laughed so hard in my life. Well.. almost never. More like harder, than I'm laughing when I'm hanging out with Paul, Harry, and Matt. Anyways, after Shannon almost got us lost trying to get to La Guardia Airport, we spent about two or three hours looking for Nikki. The shit that was said while George, and I were by the baggage pickup area looking for Nikki, was in one word, insane. I've never used so many terms for the same thing, in my life.

Oh well... anyways, after we found out she was at a different airline, we took the terminal bus down to where she was. After the short drive out of there.. we went, and got a bite to eat at a diner in Franklin Square. I think George, and I talked more to each other, than to the girls. xD It was fun, though. I've never met someone that I've had so much in common with. I'm glad him, and Shannon are together, and I'm glad Shannon's happy with him. U_u; I just wish I could be with the girl that I like.. and she probably guessed by now that I have a crush on her. Like after last night it wasn't hard to tell..u.u.. Oh well. Shit happens.

All right, well, I must be off. I have to finish getting ready for work. L8tz

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[28 Jul 2001|08:53pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Why can't my dad ever get the hint that I want to be alone for ONE fucking minute? God. >/ I walk down to the corner to sit, and think, and of course, he decides to drive by, and make some stupid ass comment. God dammit, WHY DOESN'T HE GET THE FUCKING HINT!? SOMEONE FUCKING TELL ME THAT!!

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[25 Jul 2001|01:20pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

"Do you believe in love? Do you believe in destiny? True love may come only once in a thousand lifetimes... I too have loved...they took her from me. I prayed for her soul....I prayed for her peace. When I close my eyes. I see her face, it comforts me. When I close my eyes. Memories cut like a knife. The blood is the life, and Christ I defy. My sworn enemy...birth of a new creed. Is this my reward for serving God's own war? The blood I've spilled for faith fulfilled. To damn her, a disgrace, you spit back in my face. I served you loyally, and you spew blasphemy.

I avenge with darkness, the blood is the life. The Order of the Dragon, I feed on human life. There are far worse things awaiting man than death. Come taste what I have seen. I'm spreading my disease. I will feed upon His precious child. The human race will bleed, they will serve my need.

I avenge with darkness, the blood is the life. The Order of the Dragon, I feed on human life. I am the Dragon of blood, a relentless prince of pain. Renouncing God on His throne. My blood is forever stained

For true love I shall avenge. I defy the creed that damned her. I avenge with darkness, the blood is the life. The Order of the Dragon, I feed on human life. I am the Dragon of blood, a relentless prince of pain. Renouncing God on His throne. My blood is forever stained."

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[23 Jul 2001|01:20pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I have to leave for work at four thirty, and I am so bored out of my mind right now. Hmm... I think I might go search for the lyrics to the song I'm listening to. Marilyn Manson is the heaviest thing I have in my CD collection right now, especially since all I've been listening to as of late is heavy stuff, Marilyn Manson, Metallica, Coal Chamber, Iced Earth, Deicide, Slipknot, Rammstein, etc. Oh well, I think this song makes me feel better. *-*

All simple monkeys with alien babies. Amphetamines for boys. Crucifixes for ladies. Sampled and soulless. Worldwide and real webbed. You sell all the living. For more safer dead

Anything to be loved. Anything to be loved. Rock is deader than dead. Shock is all in your head. Your sex and your dope is all that were fed. So fuck all your protests and put them to bed

God is on the T.V.

ROCK! LALALALA! ROCK! LALALALA! ROCK! LALALALA!

1,000 mothers are praying for it. We're so full of hope. And so full of shit. Build a new god to medicate and to ape. Sell us stressed, dressed up and real fake.

ROCK! LALALALA! ROCK! LALALALA!

Anything to be loved. Anything to be loved. Rock is deader than dead. Shock is all in your head. ROCK! Rock! Is deader, than dead! SHOCK! Shock! Is all in your head. Your sex and your dope is all that were fed. So fuck all your protests and put them to bed

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[22 Jul 2001|02:48am]
[ mood | naughty ]

[01] What's your first name?: Charles
[02] Middle name?: Anthony
[03] Last name?: Terranova-Bebek.
[04] Nicknames?: Charlie, Chuck, Chaz, Chucktallica, Chuck-O-Matic, Chuck-O-Ramma, Chuckazoid, Chuck-O-Wigga, Wiggazoid, etc.
[05] Age?: 17
[06] Sex?: Male
[07] Birthday?: July 17th, 1984.
[08] Your sign?: Cancer
[09] Where do you live?: Farmingdale, New York.
[10] Do you have a boy/girlfriend?: Both, and they know who they are. ^.~
[11] If so what's her/his name?: Ain't sayin'. >P
[12] Have you ever been in love?: Still am.
[13] Who are/were your crushes?: Eh... that person knows who she is.
[14] Do you have any piercings or want any?: I have my ears pierced, five in one ear, seven in the other, three in one eyebrow, four in the other, my tongue, and my lip twice.
[15] If so what do you have/want pierced?: I JUST SAID I HAD PIERCINGS >O
[16] Do you have a tattoo or want one?: Multiple
[17] If so what kind and where?: I dunno yet.
[18] Where do you shop at the most?: Utopia, Hot Topic, Freaks, etc.
[19] What color is your hair?: Dirty blonde with crimson, and black/blue streaks.
[20] What color are your eyes?: Original color is brown, but they're silver, and violet right now.
[21] How tall are you?: 5'9 1/2."
[23] Do you smoke?: Yeah.
[24] Do your friends smoke?: Duh.
[25] Who are your closest friends?: Leo, Vera, Joanne, Lindz, Lyn, etc.
[27] Who are your best friends online?: Leo, 'Manda, Gerri, Cheryl, and others.
[28] Do you like Bath & Body Works?: Hell no.
[29] Kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use?: Anything my parents buy.
[30] Is your hair short or long?: Shoulder length.
[31] Do you like to shop?: Yep.
[32] What sports do you play?: Lacrosse, and Soccer.
[33] What turns you on?: =X
[34] What turns you off?: Valley Girls, thugs, wiggers, and preps.-_-;

[35] What place do you go for fun?: Multiple places. o.o;
[36] What do you do for fun?: Play video games, RP online, RP offline, hang out with my friends, chill with my band mates, play the guitar, listen to music, and other shit.
[37] How many phones do you have in your house?: 4.
[38] How many TV's do you have in your house?: 4.
[39] What's your favorite foods?: Anything Japanese, Chinese or Italian.
[40] Do you look like anyone famous?: No.
[41] Do you think Ricky Martin is my guapo (very handsome?): NO >O HE'S FUCKING UGLY
[42] Who are the most attractive people you know?: Uhhh.... I dunno. o.o;;
[43] Are you a virgin?: Yeah, I am.
[44] Do you wish to be like your parents?: HELL NO
[45] What cologne should a hot guy wear?: ::Shrugs.::
[46] What are you listening to right now?: "Asche Zu Asche," by Rammstein.
[47] What time is it?: 1:52 a.m.
[48] How many hours per day do you spend talking on the phone?: Multiple.
[49] Do you have your own phone line?: Yep, and I pay for it too.
[50] Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex?: Yeah, I have, and I've kissed someone of the same sex, and it didn't bother me at all. ;)
[51] What are your favorite shoes?: Airwalk, and Vans.
[52] What kind of clothes do you sleep in, if any?: An Ozzy shirt, and my boxers.
[53] What's your favorite soda?: Coke.
[54] What things do you say a lot?: Fuck off, blow me, bite me, piss off, leave me the fuck alone, etc.
[56] Who is the coolest person in the world?: My friends.
[57] Do you think you're weird or funny?: BOTH
[58] What would you prefer Thong or Bikini?: Uhm...o.o...
[59] Who was the last person you called?: Kristin.
[60] Where do you wanna get married?: ::Shrugs.::
[61] Who is the hottest girl/guy in your school?: I don't really look..
[62] What are your favorite girl names?: Lindsey, Samantha, and Desiree
[63] What are your favorite guy names?: Matthew, Bryan, and Samuel
[64] What's your worst memory in the past 5 years?: No comment.
[65] What's your favorite childhood memory?: Visiting my Godfather, who I haven't seen in years.
[66] What is your favorite fast food restaurant?: Wendys.
[67] Who do you really hate?: Hypocrites, and annoyances.
[68] Do you have any brothers and sisters?: A brother, two sisters, a step-brother, a half sister, and a half brother.
[69] If so, names?: Johnathan(12), Diona(8), Celina(7), Josh(9), Aysa(eleven months), and Rob(21).
[70] Do you have a pool?: Yus
[71] Do you have a spa?: I wish.
[72] Are you stupid?: I act stupid constantly.
[73] What are you addicted to?: Sugar.
[74] Do you like jewelry?: My rings, yeah.
[75] Who do you wish you were?: Kristin or Jon.

[76] Who has it easier, boys or girls?: Neither, life's a bitch
[77] Would you rather be short or tall?: I like my height.
[78] Do you like to dance?: Nah.
[79] Do you like playing pranks on people?: Hell yeah
[80] What's your least favorite subject in school?: Math
[81] What's your favorite subject in school?: Lunch. xD
[82] What time is it?: 2:07 a.m.
[83] What college do you wanna go to?: I dunno yet.
[84] What school do you go to now?: Farmingdale Senior High for another year.
[85] Do you have a Playstation or Nintendo 64?: Both.
[86] If so, what are your favorite Playstation or Nintendo 64 games?: Dunno.
[87] Do you sleep a lot?: Yeah.
[88] Whats your favorite radio stations?: KROCK, 92.3
[89] Are you a night person?: Hell yeah!
[90] Are you a morning person?: When I have to be.
[91] Whats your favorite TV station?: None.
[92] Do you shave?: Yeah.
[93] How often do you shower?: Twice o' day.
[94] Do you get along with your parents?: Dad: Once in a while. Mom: Yeah.
[95] What room do you spend the most time in?: My heavy metal infested, and poster covered room.
[96] How many rooms does your house have?: Many.
[97] What do you wanna be when your out of school?: The lead singer of a famous metal band.
[98] Do you curse a lot?: Yeah, and I'm proud of my truck driver mouth.
[99] Are you ticklish?: NO
[101] What are you wearing right now?: My black, and blue Ozzy shirt, and dark blue jeans.
[102] Do you go to church?: I'm Wiccan so no. :)
[103] Do you like the person who sent you this?: I got it from Jon, so yep. :)
[104] Do you believe in God?: Nope.
[105] Do you like to watch PDA?: o_O?
[106] Do you show PDA?: O_o?
[107] Do you believe in love at first sight?: No.
[108] What color tooth brush do you use?: Blue.
[109] How many times a day do you brush your teeth?: Three times a day.
[110] Who is your favorite cartoon character?: Dunno.
[111] Do you have a job?: Yep!
[113] What's your favorite fruit?: Strawberries.
[114] What's your favorite veggies?: Peas.
[115] What's your favorite candy?: M&Ms.
[116] What was the best day of your life so far?: The day I met Kristin IRL, a.k.a., my seventeenth birthday.
[117] What are you gonna do today?: Dye my hair, get gothed out, and freak the neighbors.
[118] Are you momma's little angel?: HELL NO
[119] Do you wear body spray?: o_O?
[120] Who is the sweetest girl?: Lindz.
[121] Who is the sweetest guy?: Me. ::Whistles inncocently.::
[122] Are you wearing nail polish now?: Yep.
[123] If so, what color?: Black, and silver.
[124] How many rings or necklaces do you own?: Many.
[125] Do you wear a watch?: I have my beeper.
[126] Did/Do you have braces?: I need 'em. x_x;
[127] Are you tired?: Nah
[129] Do you have freckles?: No.
[130] What are you thinking right now?: ChAoS
[131] Are you having fun?: No.
[132] What time is it?: 2:18 a.m.
[133] Who makes you laugh?: Leo.
[134] Who's your favorite teacher?: Mr. Rose.
[136] What is the best concert you have ever been to?: WOODFUCKINGSTOCK '99
[137] What is your favorite dream?: =X
[138] What is your worst dream?: .......
[139] Are you tired of filling this out yet?: Yeah.
[140] Which of your friends do you think will get bored with this?: o.o
[141] Who sent this lovely survey to you?: I already answered this >/!!
[142] What's your worst memory as a little kid?: .......
[143] Have you ever cheated on anyone?: Yeah... and that mistake still hurts me.
[144] Do you believe in Santa Claus?: Nope.
[145] Do you believe in ghosts?: I am one. n.n;

What's Better? Choose one or neither

[146] Rap or R&B?: Neither
[147] Pop or Rock?: Rock
[148] Rock or Metal?: Metal
[149] Classical or Jazz?: Both suck.
[150] Hanson or Manson?: Manson.
[151] KoRn or 311?: KoRn
[152] No Doubt or Garbage?: Garbage.
[153] Jewel or Fiona Apple?: Neither
[154] Offspring or Nine Inch Nails?: Both
[155] Sugar Ray or Tool?: Tool.
[156] Backstreet Boys or 'N SYNC?: FUCK YOU
[157] Joey McIntyre or Jordan Knight?: FUCK YOU AGAIN

Your Opinions

[158] What do you think about Boy Bands: They all can go die for all I care.
[159] What do you think about Country?: Sucks.
[160] What do you think about Heavy Metal?: My life. n.n;
[161] What do you think about Rap?: Gay.
[162] What do you think about R & B?: Boring.
[163] Do you think NKOTB are coming back?: Who?

Yes or No or Eh :).

[164] Yes or No. Like Hanson?: NO
[165] Yes or No. Like *NSYNC?: FUCK YOU
[166] Yes or No. Like Backstreet Boys?: DIE
[167] Yes or No. Like KoRn?: Yep.
* [167*] Yes or No. Like ICP?: Eh...
[168] Yes or No. Like Orgy?: Damn right.
[169] Yes or No. Like Sugar Ray?: Nah.
[170] Yes or No. Like Metallica?: DAMN STRAIGHT
[171] Yes or No. Like No Doubt?: They're alright.
[172] Yes or No. Like Britany Spears?: FUCK NO BITCH
[173] Yes or No. Like Aaron Carter??: FUCKING HELL NO
[174] Yes or No. Like B*witched?: GAY
[175] Yes or No. Like Joey McIntrye?: WORSE
[176] Yes or No. Like Jordan Knight?: FUCK HIM
[177] Yes or No. Like Busta Rymes?: GAAAAYYYYY
[178] Yes or No. Like Offspring?: KICK ASS
[179] Yes or No. Like Ricky Martin?: KILL ME DAMNIT
[180] Yes or No. Like Coolio?: Eh...
[181] Yes or No. Like Janet Jackson?: Nope.
[182] Yes or No. Like Spice Girls?: DIE
[183] Yes or No. Like All Saints?: DIE
[184] Yes or No. Like C-Note? 'Tha fuck?
[185] Yes or No. Like 98*? FUCK NO
[186] Yes or No. Like 5ive?: FUCK YOU
[187] Yes or No. Like TLC?: Nope.
[188] Yes or No. Like Take 5?: O_o?
[189] Yes or No. Like Moffats?: Nah.
[190] Yes or No. Like Jennifer Love Hewit?: Great body.
[191] Yes or No. Like Dixie Chicks?: OH GOD NO!
[192] Yes or No. Like Mariah Carey?: o_O?
[193] Yes or No. Like EYC?: 'THA FUCK?
[194] Yes or No. Like Brandy?: BAI :D
[195] Yes or No. Like Eminem?: :D
[196] Yes or No. Like Shaina Twain?: DIE
[197] Yes or No. Like Monica?: DIE
[198] Yes or No. Like Mya?: Ew.
[200] Yes or No. Like Blessed Unions of Soul?: No.
[201] Yes or No. Like Bared Naked Ladies?: No.
[202] Yes or No. Like Robbie Williams?: Yeah.
[203] Yes or No. Like LIMP BIZKIT?: Limp Nutsack.
[203a] Yes or No.. DO you like the Beach boys?: Yeah.
[203b] Yes or no.. Do you like Def Leppard?: FUCK YEAH
[203c] Yes or no.. Do you like Whitesnake?: KICK ASS
[203d] Yes or no.. Do you like Queen?: KICK ASS MOTHER FUCKER
[203e] Yes or no.. Do you like Elton John?: o.o...
[205] What Cd's are in your CD player?: My Linkin Park CD.
[206] How many tapes do you have?: Taped tapes.
[207] Do you own videos of your favorite group?: Nope.
[208] Do you record your favorite group when they're on tv?: No.
[209] Are you obbsessed with your favorite group/singer/band?: I have a bunch of shit signed by my favorite groups, and shit.
[210] What's the oldest group/singer you are still listening to?: Black Sabbath, and Allice Cooper.
[211] Are most of your friends music freaks?: Mhm.
[212] What do you think of the girls and the whole teeny bopper thing?: DIE
[213] Have you ever paid for a pay-per-view?: Multiple times.
[215] Do you ever buy merchandise of your favorite group?: Yeah.
[216] What TV station is better...MTV or VH1?: VH1
[217] What is the worst show on MTV?: That TRL shit.
[218] What is the best show on MTV?: Beavis and Butthead, when it was on that is
[219] If you could marry any music person who would it be?: .......
[220] What is the worst CD you own?: None.
[221] What's your favorite movie Soundtrack?: The Matrix.
[222] Friend(s) that looks most like you?: NONE
[224] Friend(s) you have the most fun with?: All of 'em.
[225] Friend(s) you can do nothing with and still have fun with?: Matt, Mike, Jerry.
[226] Friend(s) you've dreamt about?: Lindz, Lyn, Vera..
[227] Friend(s) you tell your dreams to?: Steph.
[228] Friend(s) you tell your secrets to?: No one.

[229] Boxers or briefs?: Boxers.
[230] Long or short hair?: Long.
[231] Dark or blonde?: Both.
[232] Tall or short?: Both.
[234] Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny?: Funny!
[235] Good boys or bad boys?: Both.
[236] Dark or light eyes?: Both
[237] Hat or no hat?: Dont care
.
[238] Ears pierced or no?: Piercings.
[239] Tan or fair?: Both.
[240] Freckles or none?: None.
[241] Stubble or neatly shave?: Eh...
[242] Rugged outdoorsy type or sportsy type?: Neither
[243] All american, homey G, or grunge?: Grunge.
[245] Accent or American?: Don't give.
On preferences

[246] Mt. Dew or SURGE?: Both.
[247] McDonalds or Burger King? Both.
[248] Coke or Pepsi?: Both.
[249] Rather marry the perfect lover or perfect friend?: Neither...
[250] Sweet or sour?: Both
[251] Chocolate or vanilla?: Vanilla.
[252] Tea or coffee?: Coffee.
[253] Sappy/action/comedy/horror/comedy?: Horror
[254] Cats or dogs?: Both.
[256] Cooler Ranch or Nacho Cheese?: Cooler Ranch.
[257] Mud or Jello wrestling?: Both. n.n;;
[258] With or without ice-cubes?: I dunno.
[260] Milk/Dark/White chocolate?: Milk.
[261] Shine or rain?: Rain, but not all the time
[262] Top or Bottom?: Doesn't bother me. =X
[263] Favorite season?: Winter
[264] Strawberry or Cherry?: Strawberry.
[265] Skiing or boarding?: Boarding!
[266] Biking or blading?: Blades!!!!
[267] Cake or cookies?: Cookies.
[268] Cereal or toast?: Eggs
[269] Car or truck?: Jeep.
[270] Night or day?: Night
[271] Gloves or mittens?: Gloves
[272] Pager or Cell phone?: Cell phone
[273] Bunk bed or waterbed?: Water
[274] Chewing gum or hard candy?: Both
[275] Motor boat or canoe?: JetSkii's RULE
[276] Lights on or off?: In the dark.

What's your favorite?

[277] What's your favorite color?: Dark colours.
[278] What's your favorite Number?: 69, 666, 777, and 13.
[279] What's your favorite Drink?: Coke.
[280] What's your favorite Animal?: King Cobra.
[281] What's your favorite Holiday?: My birthday.
[282] What's your favorite Quote?: "I'm not like them, but I can pretend. The sun is gone,
but I have a light. The day is done, but I'm having fun. I think I'm dumb, or maybe just happy..." - Nirvana, "Dumb."
[283] What's your favorite Sound?: Purr
[284] What's your favorite Ice cream flavor?: Too many.
[285] What's your favorite Song Ever?: "Asche Zu Asche," by Rammstein.
[286] What's your favorite Book?: None.
[287] What's your favorite Movie?: Titan A.E. xD
[288] What's your favorite TV show?: I dunno.
[289] What's your favorite Radio station?: KROCK.
[290] What's your favorite Place?: o.o;;;
[291] What's your favorite Game?: The Final Fantasy Series.
[292] What's your favorite Scent?: Vanilla.
[293] What's your favorite Food?: Sushi.
[294] What's your favorite Shape?: Pentagram.
[295] What's your favorite Texture?: Soft Skin
[296] What's your house gonna look like?: Like a metalhead crackhead's house. o_o;
[297] Where are you gonna live?: None of yo' business.
[298] How many kids do you want?: Blow me.

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HyPeRaCtIvItY [18 Jul 2001|02:00pm]
[ mood | hyper ]

Once I told you about my secrets. I say I trust you but that don't seem right. Harsh decisions is what has made us. Grow ever slowly towards other sides.

Forget about the time. It's up to me. You left me now it's over. I'm over again. You think about the time. It's meant to be. You think about it. OVER AND OVER. You might try and you might wait. And you might erase me cold as ice. And you might care. And you might imagine my decision to stay. But it's over this time glad it's mine

What controls you to that behavior? Is resolution to tough to fit? Now it's over we've made decisions. My own conclusion I let it sit there.

Forget about the time. It's up to me. You left me now it's over. I'm over again. You think about the time. It's meant to be. You think about it. OVER AND OVER. You might try and you might wait. And you might erase me cold as ice. And you might care. And you might imagine my decision to stay. But it's over this time glad it's mine

Cause with a bomb. I'll check ya. And the wick is sensi. Don't you stand to close y'all? With a bomb. I'll wreck ya. And the b-side's scary. Don't you pass this way now. Cause when the band starts creepin'. And the fans start seein'. What has taken so long. It's a bomb that checks ya. And the wic is sensi.

OVER AND OVER! You might try and you might wait. And you might erase me cold as ice. And you might care. And you might imagine my decision to stay. But it's over this time glad it's mine! You might try and you might wait. And you might erase me cold as ice. And you might care. And you might imagine my decision to stay. But it's over this time glad it's mine!


I had fun yesterday. With the near three hundred, and fifty dollars in cash that I picked up, I bought From Zero's debut album, I bought Iced Earth's "Horror Show," album, and I bought the DVDs for Titan A.E.(Lol, Nikki), and Bless The Child. I also saw Legally Blonde yesterday. It was an all right movie. Ugh, my arm is STILL dead after getting blasted in the shoulder eighteen times by twelve or thirteen people. x_x; Talk about a dead arm. Anyways.. I got Lyn's package today. I'm SO happy about that! I'm also happy that I got to meet Krissy, my sweetheart. Krissy's pretty, even though she says she isn't. n.n;; I wonder what her parents had to say about the mark I left on her neck. I hope they don't kill me for it. xD Oh well. Anyways, I gotta' run. I have to leave for work soon. Fuckin' sucky hours. Four to eight, which is gay. Anyways, LATAHZ!
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[13 Jul 2001|02:13pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Yep. Today is definitely going to kick ass, though I already feel like crap ever since I crawled out of bed. Yeah, lucky me, I fell asleep online last night, at the beginning of my favorite day of the year. Friday The Thirteenth. Paul decided to be a fucking asshole about ten fucking dollars for a bag of weed. I'm like "Paul, you've got a job, leave me the hell alone. >/"
His shit seriously pisses me off, see if I ever hang out with his ass ever again, heh. Anyways, after searching through my things all night, I finally found the lyrics to my band's song "Delusional," which I'll place under this post in a moment. Anyways, I'm gonna' go find something to do. I miss Krissy already. ;-; Latahz.

"Everybodys watching me. Everybody looks at me. Someones shootin' video. I know they're probably showin' you. Everybodys seen it too


Silence makes a sound. My feet have lost the ground. An Illusion? No conclusion. I'm delusional, I'm delusional. I'm delusional I'm delusional.


I see you on my windowsill. I touch myself, give you a thrill. Someones sleepin' in my bed. Its all for real not in my head. Its just you haven't seen it yet.


Silence makes a sound. My feet have lost the ground. An Illusion? No conclusion. I'm delusional, I'm delusional. I'm delusional I'm delusional.


Silence makes a sound. My feet have lost the ground. An Illusion? No conclusion. I'm delusional, I'm delusional. I'm delusional I'm delusional"


- Pleasant Nytemares, "Delusional."
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[12 Jul 2001|02:49am]
[ mood | high ]

I took this disorder test I got from Nikki, and here are the results:
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

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Uhm...? [11 Jul 2001|02:25pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

You gotta. Stand tall and cut away the ties. Drop walls and hold that head high. The world is fast and youth ain't gonna wait. So grab a hold before it gets too late. Bare your soul and strip away the cold. Of withered life that past so grey and old. 'Cause all the pain that's filled these eyes you see. Has only made them bleed just recently. Tears that made me. Ashamed to be me. But that gave me strength to see me. Made a spark that. Let the dark and let me shine


Time to see, believe this in me. This pain that I feel deep inside. Time to see, believe this in me. This pain that I feel deep inside.


'Cause it's time we come together. Be on because I'm about it now. So do it now or never. I fall asleep to freeways far from here. Spend half the night just drinking beer. From this day on shall be the words. My flesh and bone shall make it heard. Don't you test I'll have to mess with you. Do my best so fuck the rest of you. One of these days you'll see I've always been right? Right!


Time to see, believe this in me. This pain that I feel deep inside. Time to see, believe this in me. This pain that I feel deep inside


And it makes me glad. When I see the sun. And makes me sad. When you fell on my one. And I thank my god. Got a girl like you. And I think my god. Did you save me


Time to see, believe this in me. This pain that I feel deep inside. Time to see, believe this in me. This pain that I feel deep inside. Time to see, believe this in me. This pain that I feel deep inside. Time to see, believe this in me! This pain that I feel deep INSIDE!!


That's how I feel right now. My band, and I wrote that song god knows how long ago, but the lyrics to that song describe how I feel right now.
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Pleasant Nytemares. [10 Jul 2001|01:58pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

I don't know why, but I'm feeling a lot better now. Maybe because I had a nice long conversation with Lyn on the phone. I'd rather talk to her face, to face, but the phone is all right with me. ::Shrug.::
I'm definitely going to cover this song I'm listening to. It kicks so much ass, that it's not even funny. Okay, I'm hyper, so I'm going to go try to write something. Latahz.

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Fuck Life. u_u; [09 Jul 2001|03:22pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

Ya' know, I'm just plain sick, and tired of dealing with fucking idiots when I go out to clubs, and raves. If I find one more moron that decides to bug me, I'm going to stab something.
All last night, all I felt like doing was slitting my wrists.. except, I felt a little better while I was talking to Lyn, and Leo last night, I guess. I'd feel better if I wasn't stuck in this fucking house with my annoying family. u_u; Someone shoot me, please? Before I do it myself.

To be young and to be pure, and to be bold! Only to rise one way to the
strength on way to perceive! Our sacrificial tendencies!! These were the gifts provided by our statured gods! They gave us their definition! To religion to destruction to whom to believe! Can't they see their days are fading? This is how it's gonna be until we die. Life is deceptive to all the believers!! Our objective - to sort and decipher! Their generation will rot in their golden grooves! Our generation slapped with a fuckin' "X"!! Suffer!!! And don't you bitch about your pain!! That you hide! Deep inside! To be young and to be bold!! Only to rise is one way to the strength!! One way to perceive our sacrificial tendencies!! These were the gifts provided by our statured gods! They gave us their definition!! To religion to destruction to whom to believe!! Can't they see their days are fading? This is how it's gonna be until we die! Fall down!! Ruptured focus! Sown at the eye! Some people are just too stupid to realize. That they have vision for you and I. I'll do my very best to try and fight against! Their invasion coming from the dying fields! Their days of labor withers their alliance!! Their generation will rot in the golden grooves! Our generation prevails in the fucking end! To destroy to employ!! To cock that gun! One time too many - don't choose this one!! One way sight point of view, point of disclaim!! Our destruction is for memory!!


Those are the lyrics to my song at the moment, and maybe you'll realize how I feel after you read them. Later.

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3:45 p.m. [06 Jul 2001|03:58pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Well, I finally realized one thing. Friends don't last for long. Especially FUCKING IDIOTS like Jon. I don't know why he decided to be such an asshole as of late, but I guess he has. And, I'm going to find so many ways to make Jon's life miserable.
My first one, being this plan that Leo, and I have. Which I will not even discuss right now until I get the information that I need. People think that I'm stupid, but I'm seriously not. I know what I'm doing, and if you don't believe me, you can take it to the fucking bank. I've dealt with enough people's bullshit, and I've had it.
You wanna' piss me off? I wouldn't. Because your ass'll definitely be screamed at. Good day. I'm fucking out.

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... fuck you.. [02 Jul 2001|02:04am]
[ mood | cold ]

Fuck this. I swear, if I have one more person up my ass about shit THAT I DIDN'T DO, I'm going to flip on their ass. And I seriously mean that. I've done enough fucking around, and I'm done taking people's shit. Wanna' play games? That's fine with me, but if you're gonna' play, remember that you're going to get hurt while playing.
Lucky me, I just dumped Diane's ass. Thank god, I mean, shit, she would NOT leave me THE FUCK ALONE! Half the time, I had to hide on one of my other SNs just to get some time alone. It seriously pisses me the fuck off. Have any of you people ever felt that way? I hope you have, because most people never do.
Oh well... I hope one of you people realize how I feel. Sixteen days until my birthday, thank god. Fuck this, PEACE!

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1:17 - Another Fucked Up Day [25 Jun 2001|01:21am]
[ mood | stressed ]

BLEH! Why the fuck does everything just HAVE to happen to me!? I finally get my step-mom to call Steph's dad so that I can actually go down there, but guess what, my fucking bitch-dad decides not to buy me my train ticket down to North Carolina. Why does everything just have to happen to me!? Aargh! My mind is like, literally fried right now.

The past two days were all right. Today sucked though. Friday, I went to the KROCK Dysfunctional Family Picnic with my friends Erik, and Paul. That ruled. I met Aaron Lewis, Scott Wieland, the Dudley Boys, the Hardy Boyz, Lita, and Disturbed. That kicked major ass. Saturday was my cousin's graduation party. I smoked up with her boyfriend, and my cousin Katie. Eh, could of been better. Ugh.. Someone get me out of here before I go out of my mind. ._.; I'm supposed to go see Lyn, and Leo down in Florida, but I have no idea if I'm going to be able to get down there now.. ::Sigh.:: Help. L8z. U_u;

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What the fuck? >/ [18 Jun 2001|03:47am]
[ mood | enraged ]

I fucking hate people today? Enraged? I'm more, than just enraged, but I couldn't find anything else that could describe how fucking pissed off I am at the moment. People make me sick. I wish everyone would JUST FUCKING DIE! Someone stop me before I KILL SOMEON! GOD DAMMIT >O!! I've NEVER BEEN THIS ANGRY! ARGH!!! >O!!!!!

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Bleh [17 Jun 2001|03:26pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Why the hell does today have to suck so badly? Bleh, this fucking blows! Of course, it's Father's Day, and my dad isn't even here. :\ Some father he is. I hate when he does this. I'm yell at his ass when he gets home, and I'm not kidding.
I swear, if my brother doesn't shut up right now, I'm going to stab him in the head. Eh, fuck it, I'm probably gonna' go back to sleep. This is BORING! Latahz, people.

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[11 Jun 2001|06:58am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

BLAH! Another gay Monday morning, and yet, just another gay fuckin' school day. Why the hell did anyone have to invent school anyways? It just pisses me off even more. >/! Someone fucking get me a cigarette before I go nuts.

Arrgh! I swear, the next idiot in my house that tries to read this is going to end up hurt. u.u;; I am not in a good mood today. Yay, and now I have to leave. Sucks to be me, ne? Oh well, latahz.

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